Last day of Easter Holiday. I don't want to be back really, but it will be nice to get back to the old routine. Because of the people. I could certainly do without classes again. Cho came to the Burrow with us for hols. So did Angelina. It was as crowded as ever, though, Harry, Hermione, and Ron weren't there. It was a blast being back home. And watching Cho talk with them. Mum and Dad love her, even if she's nervous about Mum thinking she dresses a little light, but Bill's a prime example of how the way you look doesn't really phase Mum much at all. Ginny stayed up in her room for lots of it, so the only thing we had to experience with her 'issues' were the rows her and mum would have every once in a while. Other than that and not having Ron around, it was just like the usual. Except better. Because I could run and frolic with the princess whenever I wanted to. She seemed to like the place a lot, which I was very relieved of. I loved all the little... I don't know.. 'habits' I guess you'd call them that she developed. Sneaking food onto my plate, stealing Fred's radio, sitting out on the sofa or hiding up in a tree, and teasing Percy (That's my girl!!). I think she's fit in right well, I do!

Had some interesting events happen at the Burrow. Probably the most interesting was the revelation of Percy's... interest in the male gender. I really don't know what to say about that. It's rather... weird. Since I've known him all my life and I wouldn't have suspected really... well, jokingly perhaps, but never seriously. Ron and Fred didn't take it too well. I admit I went kind of bug eyed when I heard it, but I'm okay with it I guess. I think I'll stop writing about that though.

I can't remember much now, I should have written in this earlier, but I was just having so much fun. Playing Quidditch with Cho, Fred, Ang, Charlie and Bill was great, Mum's cooking still hits the spot, poor Dad didn't have any Harry or Hermione to ask questions about muggle objects though.

And everyone seemed to get along splendidly, even Fred and Cho, which is great. I think I can trust him again, he's been nothing but as kind as possible to her lately, and our product ideas have been developing even more. We worked some over break, because we have lots our supplies at home. The only upsets were when Fred and I accidentally upset Ang and Cho by talking about death. We were just joking, no harm was meant, but I forget sometimes that I've got someone now who cares about me so much, the thought horrifies them. There was that, and Fred and Ang were upset about something. Oh well.

I left with the princess on Wednesday for her house. Her parents were going to be away for the rest of the week, so we thought we'd, well, take advantage of it. It was quite a change, though part of it was definitely a welcome one. Going from the Burrow, where people are everywhere, you have to squeeze past them on the stairs, it's always fairly noisy and there's just stuff... everywhere. To Cho's mansion of a house, completely empty except for the two of us. I enjoyed it for the most part, it just being me and her, getting up together every morning, making our own meals... (though, I tended to burn everything, so Cho eventually took over that little chore. To make up for it, I did the clean up afterwards for her.) It was fantastic. Thursday morning, we got a surprise visitor.

I came downstairs, not wearing much at all, just my boxers if i can recall, and seeing as how it takes me a good 15 minutes to fully wake up, I didn't even notice Blaise was here until Cho started making the coffee. Ends up she had come to explain he recent bitch-like attitude and abandonment of our friendship. Cho didn't cooperate at first. I didn't exactly want to, but Blaise seemed quite sincere. But I guess, somehow, we forgave her. So my princess has her best friend back. And she'll be decent to me again so I don't need to worry about snapping.

But i had quite the scare yesterday. I awoke and Cho wasn't next to me. That wasn't unusual, I tend to sleep in. But I went downstairs and she wasn't in the kitchen, or the dining room, or living room, or outside. And I couldn't find a note or anything anywhere. Needless to say I was quite worried. I sat down and eventually ate some breakfast, thinking maybe she'd just gone to run and errand and forgot to leave a note. But then I went on the muggle computer and she was online! And she wouldn't tell me where she was or anything! She seemed very upset with me. I had no clue why. But I got the jist that she was in the house somewhere so I ran around everywhere I could think of. I swear I looked that place up and downm but it's so big! How are you supposed to find anyone there?!

I couldn't find her ALL day! And then Blaise sent me this, and I panicked. Replied with this. But it was no use, I just couldn't seem to find her. I felt horrible, because I must have done something wrong to make her act like this. i thought maybe I should leave, if she didn't want to see me. but I couldn't, in case something happened to her. I know she doesn't hold her alcohol well. I eventually grabbed a few beers myself, to try and calm myself down.

Went to sit and stay up for her, in case she'd come back. Fell asleep. But around midnight she came and found me. Ends up she had been talking to Fred and Ang the other night, and the git wouldn't tell her about the joke shop. I could have sworn I told him that Cho knew about it, but maybe not. So she was wondering what could be to secretive and thought we might be doing something illegal and was very upset that I had supposedly been keeping things from her. Poor dear. But Ang talked with her and told her what was up, so she finally came out of whatever room she was in.

I was so bloody relieved she was okay, she hadn't done anything with any alcohol. We talked a bit then... went to "bed". And things were good again. She was next to me this morning when I woke up. Still had my arms around her. I might have been a little clingy last night, but when your girlfriend just disappears and threatens to possible hurt herself, you do everything you can to not let it happen again. It was a rather traumatizing experience. But I'm glad it was over something so silly. I sent Blaise another owl this morning.

And now we're back at Hogwarts. i was rather sad to go. Hogwarts is great, but I dispise studies with a passion. And now I have to start studying for my NEWTs. Damn things. I wish Cho was in my year. haha, then she could help me. Oh well. I get today to relax, and then back to class tomorrow. Overall, I'd say I'm happy with the holidays. And spending time with my princess... yes. I can't wait till we get to be together for good.

So I tried to confront Blaise, and yeah, that blew up in my face. She was a bitch from the beginning of the conversation and I think that caught me a bit off guard. So I snapped back and basically stayed pissed at her for the whole conversation, which certainly didn't make her want to talk to me more. But I guess a bit of the ol' george charm worked because she did reveal some things. Supposedly, she feels that she was hurting Cho, or would hurt Cho in the future, because her parents would seperate them etc etc. Yeah, I wish I could be more understanding, but she certainly DID hurt Cho, so I have a feeling it's a bunch of bullshit. And she acts as if the way her parents live is the only way to live. Which I know, is a bunch of poppycock. She's a coward. She's too chicken to do what she wants, because oh dear, we wouldn't want to be shunned by the pompous assholes who'll shun her later in life anyways so they don't deserve her in the first place. Which reminds me. I was terrible to her. I've never said the things I did to anyone before... I snapped when she said she was above me. She obviously never really considered me a friend. I was always a dirty Weasley, her friend's boyfriend who was perhaps more tolerable than the rest of the red-headed mudblood lovers. I don't like the idea of betrayal like that. And she's the one who betrays everyone. I was determined to show her, she is not above me, and at the time, I wanted to show her, she was the lowest of the low.

I told her she'd grow old and lonely, and reminded her that she will eventually get wrinkles. (which, for Blaise, is a deep shock) I told her that her husband would leave her as soon as her looks began to fade, and that her huge mansion would be hollow without anyone to keep her company in it. And then I told her how I'm going to be when I'm old. I'll be in a cozy home, with Cho by my side, having as much fun as we ever did, talking, joking, cuddling in front of the fire. I can just picture her curled up beside me reading a book while I'm amusing myself with some dinky trinket I've invented. I'll be happy. I'll be above her. And she'll feel like the dirt she is....

George Weasley doesn't talk like that. George is a nice, funny guy who almost everyone gets along with and who's loyal to the end... a gentleman... I didn't feel like one. i still don't feel like one. I'm horrible. But what it makes it even worse is that I'd probably say it all again.... I ran to Cho's afterward. I needed reassurance, I needed to know that I'm not a complete jackass...

She helped. Things were good. Things are always good when I'm with her. But as soon as I left her dorm I felt bad again. And now, I have no bloody clue...

I should have written right away, because now I've got a TON of stuff to say, but oh well! I haven't felt like just sitting and writing, I've been up and doing things. not to mention i haven't felt welcome in my own dorm.

Cho's my princess once more!!! It happened last Wednesday I think, I was walking with Fred when Cho came up and asked to speak with him. My curiosity got the best of me and I eavesdropped. Ends up Fred told her a bunch of lies and threatened her to stay away from me. That's why she broke it off and avoided me. needless-to-say I was QUITE pissed and we ended up in a fist fight. I couldn't and still can't believe he'd hurt my princess like that. I don't even care that it tore me up too, but to hurt her... hm. so Cho brought me back to her dorm and put my face back together. She has a gentle touch. We talked and she told me exactly what had happened. Then we were back together. And I should have been ecstatic. And I would have been. But...

I hated Fred. I didn't want to speak to him, or even see him, he was supposed to be my brother and best friend and he had stabbed me in the back. But it's a very sickening feeling, hating the guy your so used to doing everything with like that. Luckily, he made it easier by in turn being very mad and spiteful toward me as well. It was so great to be back with Cho, and she let me hide from Fred in her dorm all the time.

Then we were invited to stay at her house for the weekend. Wow. Usually, I don't care about making a fool of myself and many times, just enjoy the attention, but this was something close to heart, if I screwed up, I could have ruined things. So I was bloody nervous. We left Friday evening and arrived fairly late. I met her mum and to my surpise, her mum was acting very cheery and pleased to see me. Which freaked both the princess and I out. But then I met her dad and he seems to be a rather fun fellow! He said I remind him a bit of himself at my age. And if I grow to be like him as I'm older, I'll be fine I think. Maybe I'll be a bit more handsome, but hey, it's hard to outdo george Weasley in looks. haha. But Saturday morning after breakfast, I got what I was afraid of. A lecture from cho's mum. I bet she sent cho on that errand just to get a minute alone with me. And make me feel like something on the bottom of a shoe. Looks like the nice act was just that - an act. But she was very rude. And i took it alright at first but then she called my princess a fool, and i tend to have this compulsion to defend my beloved. So I eventually stood up for us and told her mum how I felt. Her mother's a bitch. Even I can't find much light in this situation. She'll be fun to annoy for the rest of our lives though. I didn't tell the princess about it though. She hates her mum enough, and I hate to be the cause of a family quarrel. Plus, I'm a big boy, I can handle a few harsh words myself. Other than that, the weekend was quite pleasurable. Was good to be awawy from the hussle and bussle of Hogwarts gossip. And Fred.

When we returned, the week started again, almost as usual. Fred and I had detention extended because we got into another fist fight during last Thursday's. But then Tuesday evening I didn't see Cho at the Ravenclaw table at supper (I usually sneak up behind her and squeeze her sides before I go to my table. She makes fun noises.) So i brought a plate of food and a goblet of pumpkin juice to her room. That's where she told me how Blaise had gone up to her and said they had never been actual friends, that Blaise just used her, and now she didn't need her anymore. I was pretty upset about it, I know how much their friendship meant to Cho. So I've been acting rude to Blaise. i'd feel bad except for the fact that she is rude to me now too. I guess I was nothing to her as well... but it's hard to see that. After she's told me things she wouldn't even tell Cho. Hmmm... maybe I'll find her and try to get it out of her. And even if she hates me for doing it, I'll try to get her to take back what she said to Cho.

I love Cho. I really do. She's way to good to me. And Angie must really care for Fred. Because last night, they locked us in our dorms and made us talk. Wasn't much of a talk though, i basically yelled, and Fred apologized. Hrm. I accepted eventually. not because I freally forgive him... but because I miss him, as much as I didn't want to admit it. I mean, it's hard to get used to being George Weasley without Fred Weasley. So he and I are now speaking again, we got rid of the line in our bedroom. I'm sure we'll be back to pranking in no time. He says he has a couple new ideas. But the whole thing got me to thinking... I'm so used to being 'one of the Weasley twins' that, it's going to be so... weird... when we move out and things. We used to have plans to get a flat together and work on the business. But then he and Angelina got serious. I used to be worried about being alone after graduation, but now i've got Cho. And so I understand how Fred feels. So we're not going to live together, I'm pretty sure he and Ang are serious enough, he's told me about them getting their own flat. And I have Cho's frandmum's engagement ring, which is basically a type of promise. One that I intend to keep. So hopefully I'll end up with Cho, but that means there's a year of... what. Hm. I don't want to keep living at the burrow. It's comfortable, and that's what Percy's doing, but i want to get out and get a job as quick as possible. And I want to be near Cho. But I can't afford my own flat.... maybe I can rent a place for cheap...it'll be crappy, and run down, I'm sure. but oh well. It's only a year. And George Weasley doesn't let his finacial instability get him down. So I'm going to go visit the princess now. She makes everything feel right. It's good to have things mostly back to the way they're supposed to be.

I tried talking to her yesterday, but she just answered me with "no" or "nothing". She was in the hospital wing all day, and I had to see if I could find out what was wrong. I mean, she may not be interested in me anymore, but I still love her, and I don't think that will ever go away. So I got worried, just like always, and things blew up in my face. I just felt awful. Last night, I mistakingly started up conversation with her once again and she told me I shouldn't care. She said I shouldn't care, because she doesn't anymore so neither should I. I haven't cried since I was maybe 8. Well, I certainly let some tears out then, as embarrassing as it is. How long has it been since she doesn't care? I mean, she gave me the ring! And that was just this weekend! she suddenly stopped caring in 24 hours? Merlin, I feel like such an idiot. Padma told me I'm miserable. And I am. I never meant for Cho to hate me.... something had to have gone wrong, but I can't figure out what. I tried my hardest, I really did.

She took it back a bit later, but I don't know if I can believe it. When you're mad, the truth tends to slip out. Maybe she hadn't wanted to hurt me like that, so she took it back. Which I appreciate, but... I feel like such a bubmbling fool. I can't do anything. I'm getting in trouble in all my classes for not doing the work or paying attention. I have a headache the size of a Quidditch pitch and nothing's about to change.

I have to give the ring back. She obviously doesn't want me to have it anymore, but I don't know how I can even face her to return it. I was looking forward to keeping it for a nice long time.... hm. I should stop being so optimistic. I see now, that it just comes back to bite you in the ass. I think I'll return it today. Not personally though... I wouldn't be able to handle that. I'll write a note.... I'll apologize again. Maybe then at least she won't hate me. Maybe I could salvage a friendship? I have to try... George Weasley, you are one pathetic man.

I spoke too soon. She broke it off today after classes.... I feel miserable. I don't even know what went wrong....