Can things be summed up in one word? Hm. Let me ponder this for a moment.... yes. Yes, I believe they can. Here goes... you ready for this? I don't know... really think you're ready? Okay... here we go... and.... "OY!"

There you have it. The emotions have been swimming. Harry exploded a few days ago, finally able to rant instead of blaming himself for everything and letting it eat him up inside like usual. Unfortunately, it caused a few feelings to be hurt. Ginny's mainly. Ginny's desperately avoiding Harry now. I feel sorry for them both, but perhaps it's for the better.

The main thing that's laying heavilt on everyone's mind is Blaise and Seamus. Marcus Flint. That selfish, disgusting bastard. Came back and decided to seduce poor Blaise. But then again, Blaise prides herself on being such a tough cookie but then she can't stand up to her own house members (or previous house members as the case may be) or her father. I don't understand it. She obviously likes Seamus very very much, but she can't sacrifice a few things for him? Hm, oh well, I'm not one to judge. I might just be partial because Seamus is a pal, and I kinda feel like all those 5th years are a bit like younger brothers, seeing as how Ron's in with them. So now they've broken it off. Cho seems to hold the same thoughts as i do though because she and I tried to get Blaise to start standing up for herself. But she blew us off. So the princess and I went to go get some pumpkin juice. We were both kind of worked up, so it was nice to just talk and relax.

But I've come back now and Blaise apologized and I did too. I suppose it's none of my business anyhow. At least Cho is Blaises' best friend, I don't think I have anything to do with the picture, other than my extreme hatred of Flint. I got so angry this afternoon. I can't believe some men treat the ladies like that! And they're respected for it even worse!! It just... utterly... sickens me! Flint gave the excuse that he "has needs" and that's why he can treat Blaise that way. Well, FUCK his needs, the slug is a vain, pompous, bastard who doesn't deserve to live. Ugh... Okay, I'm cooling off now. I must say, I think I'll ask Cho if she wants any help sendin Flint those curses... I'd feel no remorse for him. What so ever.

Oooh dear. I feel SO incredibley relieved. Cho got hurt in yesterday's Ravenclaw-Hufflepuff Quidditch match. Ha, hurt more like nearly killed! The poor dear got smashed by a bludger and fell right off her broom! I tried to get through the crowd to go down and see if she was alright, but even once I did, the professors were already taking her up to the med wing and wouldn't let me near to see if she was alright. Then I was forced to return to Gryffindor Tower. I thought it might just be a fairly normal Quidditch injury, but then I got online and spoke with Roger and Blaise. Roger has been quite the bastard lately. But anyway, he was about to go down there by himself and Blaise and I wee not going to allow that. So Blaise went with him and when they returned they basically said she looked horrible. I was so worried! I made my way to the hospital wing with some treats for her, but Pomfrey wasn't allowing anymore visitors. So I just had them delivered to her. Took me forever to get any sleep last night, I thought about sneaking down there, but Pomfrey probably has some security around the door. But! I'm online now and Cho's here talking! She said she was greateful for the gifts andthat she's much better now. It's taking all my will power not to dash down and visit her right away. In fact, I think I will once I'm done writing this.

Cho's become... very dear to me. I just thought she was guitae funny and good looking last time I wrote, but since then I've played chess and talked with her and we've become very good friends. We had a couple of very personal conversations as well. She felt bad that I fancy her, because she'll never break up with Draco, and I admit, I knew this, but hearing her say it was a bit of a nasty blow to the heart. She ended up crying though, and I felt horrible. It's not her fault and she shouldn't care for me that much.. though it certainly made me feel a bit better about myself. But the last thing I would want to make Cho do is cry. So I told her not to worry and that I'll get over it and as long as we're friends I'm alright. But of course, after that conversation, I felt rather funny. It was hard to get to sleep because I couldn't stop thinking about her. And then the next day I yelled at Padma when she brought up the fact that I like Cho. I don't... usually yell at people.

The princess noticed and so she called me down to the library to talk with her. She suggested we shouldn't be friends any longer because she could see it had affected me a bit. I felt bad once again for letting Cho worry about me. I like her so much, but losing her as a friend? That would hurt more than anything else. I told her so and it was obvious that my words made her pity me and she quickly decided that it was fine. I didn't mean to act so pitiful, but I'd hate to lose Cho. I do really enjoy our chess sessions and joking around with her, even if it can only amount to pretend flirting. Oh well.

But Padma's furious with me. I had apologized for yelling at her and we sort of made up, but then i guess I asked the impossible of her. I asked her to oh heaven's sake be maybe slightly nicer to my friends. Then it'd be much easier for me to defend her and be nicer to HER. But then next thing I know she's back to insulting Cho. So I got a bit mad and Cho and I pretended to married and even played out that she was pregnant. But... I couldn't get into it like I had before. I felt bad for suddenly turning on Padma when she had been trying, and pretending to be Cho's husband after we had those talks... I think Cho noticed because she eventually stopped. She's too kind.

My my my... I haven't been my usual self at all lately. Sometimes it's a refreshing change, and my mood let's me say things that I usually would refrain from saying. But that goes both ways. But I believe I'm finally getting around things. Fred's back to his old self and isn't putting me down every chance he gets, which is quite the relief. Er... hm, I can't think of much else to say. I think a chess game with the princess will cheer me up, I'll bring her more pumpkin juice as well. I just hope I don't run into Malfoy down there.