So I tried to confront Blaise, and yeah, that blew up in my face. She was a bitch from the beginning of the conversation and I think that caught me a bit off guard. So I snapped back and basically stayed pissed at her for the whole conversation, which certainly didn't make her want to talk to me more. But I guess a bit of the ol' george charm worked because she did reveal some things. Supposedly, she feels that she was hurting Cho, or would hurt Cho in the future, because her parents would seperate them etc etc. Yeah, I wish I could be more understanding, but she certainly DID hurt Cho, so I have a feeling it's a bunch of bullshit. And she acts as if the way her parents live is the only way to live. Which I know, is a bunch of poppycock. She's a coward. She's too chicken to do what she wants, because oh dear, we wouldn't want to be shunned by the pompous assholes who'll shun her later in life anyways so they don't deserve her in the first place. Which reminds me. I was terrible to her. I've never said the things I did to anyone before... I snapped when she said she was above me. She obviously never really considered me a friend. I was always a dirty Weasley, her friend's boyfriend who was perhaps more tolerable than the rest of the red-headed mudblood lovers. I don't like the idea of betrayal like that. And she's the one who betrays everyone. I was determined to show her, she is not above me, and at the time, I wanted to show her, she was the lowest of the low.

I told her she'd grow old and lonely, and reminded her that she will eventually get wrinkles. (which, for Blaise, is a deep shock) I told her that her husband would leave her as soon as her looks began to fade, and that her huge mansion would be hollow without anyone to keep her company in it. And then I told her how I'm going to be when I'm old. I'll be in a cozy home, with Cho by my side, having as much fun as we ever did, talking, joking, cuddling in front of the fire. I can just picture her curled up beside me reading a book while I'm amusing myself with some dinky trinket I've invented. I'll be happy. I'll be above her. And she'll feel like the dirt she is....

George Weasley doesn't talk like that. George is a nice, funny guy who almost everyone gets along with and who's loyal to the end... a gentleman... I didn't feel like one. i still don't feel like one. I'm horrible. But what it makes it even worse is that I'd probably say it all again.... I ran to Cho's afterward. I needed reassurance, I needed to know that I'm not a complete jackass...

She helped. Things were good. Things are always good when I'm with her. But as soon as I left her dorm I felt bad again. And now, I have no bloody clue...