I tried talking to her yesterday, but she just answered me with "no" or "nothing". She was in the hospital wing all day, and I had to see if I could find out what was wrong. I mean, she may not be interested in me anymore, but I still love her, and I don't think that will ever go away. So I got worried, just like always, and things blew up in my face. I just felt awful. Last night, I mistakingly started up conversation with her once again and she told me I shouldn't care. She said I shouldn't care, because she doesn't anymore so neither should I. I haven't cried since I was maybe 8. Well, I certainly let some tears out then, as embarrassing as it is. How long has it been since she doesn't care? I mean, she gave me the ring! And that was just this weekend! she suddenly stopped caring in 24 hours? Merlin, I feel like such an idiot. Padma told me I'm miserable. And I am. I never meant for Cho to hate me.... something had to have gone wrong, but I can't figure out what. I tried my hardest, I really did.

She took it back a bit later, but I don't know if I can believe it. When you're mad, the truth tends to slip out. Maybe she hadn't wanted to hurt me like that, so she took it back. Which I appreciate, but... I feel like such a bubmbling fool. I can't do anything. I'm getting in trouble in all my classes for not doing the work or paying attention. I have a headache the size of a Quidditch pitch and nothing's about to change.

I have to give the ring back. She obviously doesn't want me to have it anymore, but I don't know how I can even face her to return it. I was looking forward to keeping it for a nice long time.... hm. I should stop being so optimistic. I see now, that it just comes back to bite you in the ass. I think I'll return it today. Not personally though... I wouldn't be able to handle that. I'll write a note.... I'll apologize again. Maybe then at least she won't hate me. Maybe I could salvage a friendship? I have to try... George Weasley, you are one pathetic man.

I spoke too soon. She broke it off today after classes.... I feel miserable. I don't even know what went wrong....

So I've got this ring now. It's quite beautiful. And it's Cho's. Or her grandmother's... but hers now. And she gave it to me. To hold on to. And she said she wouldn't be taking it back until she answered yes to a question of mine. Wow. The girl of my dreams just basically said she'd marry me. I really couldn't be happier, right? And I was happy when she said it, I was almost ecstatic. But now... then why now do I not feel so great about things? I'm fretting about in my head, just going over things again and again.

Before she gave me the ring, she told me something that upset my insides quite a bit. She said that Malfoy kissed her. As I began to get pissed and call the little terd multiple bad names, she said that she had kissed back. That's when my insides felt like they twisted a bit. She quickly told me that it was just a habit and that it hadn't meant a thing. She looked so upset and she was afraid I was going to hate her... of course I'd never hate her. But now that it's later, I can't help but think that maybe I've done something wrong? What if she still has feelings for Malfoy? It was only abot a week after they broke up, that she and I got together and I remember her telling me a long time ago that she had feelings for me, but they could never overcome what she felt for Draco. Why does him dumping her suddenly make all those feelings go away? I'm not sure it does.... oh merlin. Mayve I'm just being really paranoid, I mean she gave me her grandmother's ring! That's got to be special... but... we were kind of having a moment. What if she just caught up in it? And it just felt right at the time, but she could be regreting it now? And hell knows, her mother is going to loathe me. But I don't care about that woman anymore. She has the gall to encourage Malfoy to marry Cho behind her own daughter's back, she's lost my respect. I'm done trying to please her.

Oy... some good news though. Fred and I pulled our prank, and our new product works splendidly! Hearing Snap squeak was an uplifting experience and whole-heartedly worth the week of detention Fred and I obtained. But afterwards, back in the dorm, I guess I was acting strangely. I still had my talk with Cho on my mind so I guess I was distracted and Fred eventually got the story out of me. He seemed a bit miffed, but I told him that things should be going better.... I just hope I was right.