Well, I'm slightly exhausted. Was up a bit late with Cho last night. Poor dear. Blaise was in a real snit last night, and she eventually told Cho off. Cho felt used and so of course I rushed over to her dorm. She didn't want to show it, but I could tell she was very upset and she did let herself cry in front of me later in the evening when Blaise insulted her more. I did my best to try and cheer her up. I think I did temporarily... I just can't stand to see her so sad. She seemed afraid that I'd see her differently if she cried in front of me. I hope I don't come across like that, because there are very very few things she could do that would change the way I feel about her. We ended up kissing and... everything else. But it was different again. Not like last summer, and even a little different then last week. I stayed afterward, and ended up falling asleep. This time... I don't know. It was definitely great. No pressure. No regrets, or annoying thoughts in the back of my head. I was just... happy? She got me thinking though. She said how she feels like everyone she gets closed to either dies or leaves her. I know she was talking about Cedric and all... I would have promised her I'd never leave, but I can't. Because, you know, I don't know. No one does. But I told her what I could. Not if I can help it. I almost told her I loved her, but I stopped myself. It may have seemed like the thing to say at the right time, but that's something I have to think about before I say. Plus, I have no idea how she'd react. I actually did mumble it when we were kissing once, but it wasn't understandable, thank goodness. I could have really made a fool of myself... though, with my bludger boxers, I believe I already have. But if I can't be a bit of a fool in front of Cho, who is there? heh heh heh.

But things are better today, Blaise ended up apologizing. I don't know... Cho accepted, but I can't help but resent Blaise for making my princess so upset. But I'll be nice if their friendship continues. I'm kinda feeling down about Padma. She's going home for the weekend. She says it's unbearable here. I didn't know she was feeling that bad. Mandy yelled at me yesterday for "breaking her heart". I never meant to do a thing like tha, never, not once. I was still hoping she'd consider me a friend, and I offered her the flying lessons and all... though she seems to be avoiding those. She cancelled this week's and I get the impression it wasn't because she's just been busy. I wish it wasn't so hard for her. But I can't do much to change it. hm...

oh, but Cho's coming over now. Maybe she can help me with this charms homework.